A Diagnosis

Had an appointment with the practice Nurse this afternoon and I am now oficially a diabetic. I know it isn't earthshattering or lifethreatening  but right now I'm not handling it that well. I just seem to be having one thing after another and I am totally fed up. The stupid woman told me to lose weight...what on earth does she think I've been trying to do?? It really doesn't help when one of the pills I was on actualy makes you put weight on - it was one hell of a struggle just to keep my weight constant. Thankfully I'm now off that but it still isn't easy to shift the weight. It feels like a battle I can never win

Right now my diabetes is being treated with yet more pills... and one of the others I take has been doubled. I really am going to rattle even more than usual based on what I have to take every day. It really doesn't feel like living with all these chemicals inside me... I've had enough.

Quiet

Life has been remarkably quiet recently, except for when I decide to start coughing...then it is anything but quiet as between coughs I'm trying to get some air back into my lungs!!

I've finally finished the horse pills that the Dr gave me, but I'm back there tomorrow as the headaches are still rather nasty. Maybe not worse but seeing as I'm not allowed the co-codamol and Tramadol the hospital sent me home with anymore and paracetamol don't touch them I need something else to keep operating - last night I was back to wanting to dril holes in my head as the pain was so bad. The neurologist did suggest some epilepsy drug to try to reduce the pain but I can't remember the name and my Occupational therapist as kept the letters from both neurologists....

Tuesday is yet another trip to the Dr Surgery to see the Diabetes nurse - hopefully this time they will make a decision one way or the other. It is simple to say I am now totally fed up with all the messing around and indecision - I want a straight forward yes or no and then some advice/instructions on what I'm meant to do. Or is that too much to ask from the NHS????

Urgh

I was stumped for words for a title today, but Urgh pretty much sums up how I'm feeling.

I'm still taking the horsepills and coughing well... I managed to wake myself and Andy up with a coughing fit at 3am yesterday morning plus I've started my new anti depressants which wonderfully knock me out at night, but do make waking up the following morning a bit of a challenge to be brutally honest! I took them for the first time Tuesday night and woke up at 11.30 on Wednesday and felt a bit like a zombie all day! Last night I took the pill at 8.30 as I needed to be in Canterbury by 10.15. I made the appointment but I'm not going to claim I was totally awake!! But driving was ok and both Bob and I are in one piece still!

The appointment in Canterbury was to see the Occuaptional Therapist used by work. He is of the opinion that I'm still not fit at work,but I am getting better and I'm possibly on the right medication now! Apparently the new anti depressant may also help kill off my headache once I get up to the right level (I'm only halfway there right now)

This week is also National Chocolate Week...I can't remember where I read this bit in Heather World  a National Chocolate week can happen as often as it wants to! Unfortunately I only have Malteasers here and right now I seem to be going off them (the manufacturers shoudl really be given an urgent warning!) But I am trying to be good and am doing my Wii Fit every day - I'm sticking with the step class right now as I enjoy it and I think it must be helping my balance! Although I am all to aware of the problems I still have...

I have a reason for feeling ill now!

I woke up yesterday feeling even worse than the last few days, so remembering promises I made my Mum & Sister I phoned the Dr and got an appointment for the morning. I had in minor panic as I couldn't recall if the receptionist set 10 to or 10 past 10 so I got there in time for the earlier just in case! As it turned out I didn't get in until 10.30 so  the timing was fairly irrelevant!!!

Saw the Dr who listened to my lungs and my coughing and promptly decided I have Bronchitis and need antibiotics... I picked the drugs up from the onsite pharmacy but didn't look at them until I got home... My first thought was do I take them or insert them somewhere!! They are enormous...possibly meant for horses. But only 6 days to go and a week later I should be feeling fine - apparently it usually lasts for 2 weeks...

Had to give the trip to Eastbourne a miss today...changes in temperature really aren't good amd the coughing leaves me exhausted, but I'm sure medicinal icecream would have been fantastic!I'll be there next time...I hhave yet to experience the ice cream shop!!

Please can someone shoot me????

At the moment I can't be described as a happy bunny... I have a cold but the way I feel I think it really comes under the man flu banner!!! My temperature is up and down like the proverbial yo-yo, my nose is in constant drip mode, my throat hurts and the cough is extremely painful. The headache is harder to think about - I have no idea if it's my usual one or if it's different! It isn't centered in the usual place so I assume it may be a result of the man flu!!!

Cat Wars has been continuing here, Gizmo has discovered a new sleeping spot, in the corner behind the TV. Whilst he's been in happy slumber land Squirrell cat has been sneaking in through his cat flap and stealing his food. Sneaking may be the wrong word as a cat flap is involved and to be honest Gizmo isn't keen on the food as it has gravy rather than jelly and as a result won't eat it!! Maybe I'll be nice and give him some tuna tomorrow and lock the flap whilst he demolishes it!!

I'm still battling with the Wii Fit...and my total lack of balance! It is always funny when it tests my centre of gravity...the resulting squiggle really should be exhibited in the Tate! My Step class was better today and I unlocked the next class up... I may have to label my feet L and R and clear the room totally to try to master that class!!! The Ski Jump is still beyond me, my knees simply don't react quickly enough and I end up tumbling down the slope as a giant snowball!!! I'll just keep trying I guess!!! Or stick to the Slalom for now...leaning I can do!

As per usual I have been meaning to write for a while...but I got slightly sidetracked by a 40th birthday and the grumpy celebratee...I'm not sure he is enoying being the big 4-0!!!

The celebrating started last saturday with a party for a select group of friends...some travelled much futher than others, But Dave and his dress were certainly the stars of the event!! I was amazed how well my Mother coped with both the dress and Dave but I'm not sure she saw the lifting of his skirt to gain access to his bottle opener!

Tuesday was dinner with Andy's family, the food was good and I think everyone enjoyed it and we possibly worsened global warming with the 3rd Birthday cake + candles!! Well it had to be done!

The celebrating continued on Thursday with a trip to see Fame...I saw the original at school as I was at school with Alan Parker's neice, we saw Fame before it was released and also got to see Bugsy Malone wilst sitting on the hall floor, this time the seating was considerably more comfortable! We followed the film by stopping of at the Beefeater for dinner. Thankfully they were quick as I was starving by 10!!

Today we went out for lunch with Andy's Dad and his wife...Zizi's in Canterbury...Apparently my choice but I enjoyed it although the Calamari was overcooked - luckily I didn't have that!!

Other news from this week...I've finally got some results bak from my week in William Harvey. I DO NOT HAVE MS!!!! Cue serious relief and celebration, the down side is they still have no idea what is causing my headaches but it is possibly something to do with a possible hormone in-balance, but that isn't a neurology problem so I'll be referred to another consultant and I assume the tests will all start again!