I am now seriously considering cancelling my birthday…not only am I dreading reaching 'That' age but I now have a neurology appointment in the morning :( I had a slight panic when the secretary phoned me to book me in as she mentioned Dr Pollock… Now we really don't like him as he is really good at scaring me half to death and is based in Canterbury which is not fun to get to and parking is horrific! At least my appointment is in Ashford and is at 9.00am so parking shouldn’t be too bad! Another plus point (As I'm being positive here ) is I quite like the Dr I see in Ashford - he doesn't tell me stuff like I'm liable to end up with MS etc when I'm alone and having to drive home from Canterbury in the rain (I managed that whilst crying my eyes out - looking back I'm quite proud of me!)
It looks like it's going to be a medical sort of week as I have blood tests on Monday morning and I was thinking about booking in a diabetes review - not sure I can be bothered now especially as I have a diabetes eye test the week after…
One day I will be problem free and won't have to take loads of pills (which I've just remembered I forgot this morning!) Maybe I do need to see a neurologist after all! So long as he doesn't stick me back in a MRI machine as I really hate those with a passion - Andy doesn't mind me going in them so long as he gets coffee!!
Dropping Mikey off this morning was fun! Mikey was fine and for once hadn't filled his nappy so smelt relatively sweet… But there was uproar at Debbie's! Apparently a new fan had stopped working and there were various small people offering reasons why this had happened! As I left Mikey was being dispatched to beat them up and restore order…I have always said my son is a thug - you don’t let the angelic blond curls fool you! I wouldn't argue with him, especially now he's worked out how his teeth work!
Today is thankfully a little cooler than yesterday was - trying to get Mikey's bedroom cool was a real battle. He ended up with the fan going most of the night and seems to like laying with his feet on the bars in the breeze! My main issue at the moment is finding cool stuff for him to sleep in…he's grown out of most of his vests and we only have 1 short sleeved one lurking - I guess I need to go clothes shopping for my little man! He certainly doesn't need a sleeping bag right now! I think after yesterday he'd happily sleep in his paddling pool if we could work out how to keep his head above water… I'll give that some thought this afternoon. If I solve it I'll add it to my new business making weight reducing chocolate cakes etc!
But my next challenge today will be dinner for Andy and I - I really don’t' want to cook and I don’t think we have anything that can be eaten raw in the fridge. I didn't plan this too well did I! But then again who believes the weather forecasters are going to get something right!?!?!?!? I do have to admit that I have an umbrella with me today….I'm fed up getting wet!! (The storm has just hit - and hit is the exact word form the noise!)
Tuesday 28 June 2011
Sunday 26 June 2011
This has been an odd sort of week to be honest…the main excitement being Mikey hitting 1! I never thought I'd be able to write about my child having their 1st birthday, it still makes me a little tearful as it was something I'd wanted for so long and I'd pretty much accepted was never ever going to happen for me - especially after the fiasco of 2008. I still think the surgeon blasted more than the kidney stones in September 08 - or maybe the big collider thing in Switzerland affected the procedure as that started whilst I was in theatre! What ever happened we got the most gorgeous little boy and to be honest I think we've had it easy so far when you read some of the horror stories of sleepless months etc - he was sleeping through from 4 months and still is not a morning person - once he's asleep he likes to stay that way for as long as he can! All we need to do now is teach him about the Sunday morning lie in! One concept he has yet to grasp - but I guess I'll need to teach him the days of the week first!
Yesterday evening we built his present from Auntie Nicky and Uncle Miff. He is now the proud owner of a Smart Trike and I want one too! But I doubt Andy could push both of us…. We're off to the school fair tomorrow as Mickey Mouse, Minnie and Buzz Lightyear are due to appear! We don't really know yet who Buzz is but he should be colourful so good to look at! Plus I really want to get Mikey into that school so it's never too early to start being supportive parents!
One other thing weighing slightly on my mind is a certain countdown…I now have less than 2 weeks of my 30's left. I vary from day to day how I feel about the change of number - as really that is all that it is! And I always used to prefer 4 to 3 as I found it easier to write 4! I have also failed miserably with my list of things to do before I hit 40 - maybe I'll follow Andy's example and make it a list to do in my 40th year… any volunteers to see a male stripper etc with me? I also really want to go up in the London Eye - and thinking about my husbands terror of heights I think I'll need a volunteer for that one too!
One other job we need to do this weekend is build a BBQ! Mum and Dad have bought me one for my birthday and right now it's sat in a box - not helpful when we'll need to cook on it next weekend! Maybe I'll do what I did with the trike - get it all out of the box and start building , Andy then looks on in horror and takes over! It also means he can pretend he's Handy Manny with power tools - I'm sure he was singing the song last night! It made a nice chance from Tim Taylor style grunts!
He's done really well this week and lost 6lbs… we have no idea how but are putting it down to the cake I made for Mikey! Devils food cake with chocolate fudge icing is now officially a weight loss staple…maybe I should start a new career!!! I could use the help right now as I am having a major attack of the munchies!
21st June
For some reason at the moment I am in a really foul mood…and it hasn't been helped by trying to work in what can best be described as a total madhouse! The noise levels this morning we pretty much too high for me to cope with and not even the trusty I-pod could drown it into a background roar. I'm fairly sure even Mikey in full blown scream mode wouldn't have drowned it all out and it made trying to concentrate an impossible task and hasn't helped my headache.
I'm also of the opinion that the Midlands are possibly one of the most laid back areas in the UK - they certainly aren't the most helpful as I've found and never seem to want to rush - why use 1 word when you could drawl out 10 or so… I can say with a fair degree of certainty that I didn't get any helpful answers and was pretty much told to call back next week when someone might be able to assist a little (If I'm lucky!!) It was a total waste of my time and hasn't exactly encouraged me to crack on with the list of things I have to do right now!
Most of this weekend was spent celebrating a small man's very 1st birthday! He is now able to open parcels (with a little help provided nobody has gone mad with the sellotape!) but really isn't bothered by cards or presents that resemble clothing! He spent most of Sunday afternoon with a Duplo brick in his mouth or eating chocolate cake (so his mothers cooking can't be too horrific!) He's also had his 12 month review and flirted with the advisor trying to do it! Well she was blond and they have always been his preference! I'm still trying to work out what has happened to the last 12 months… was I stuck in another coma for part of it as I can't remember it being a year since I had him! But looking at the size of him now I'm relieved I didn't have him recently! But he's been weighed and measured and everyone is perfectly happy with how he is getting on! Which in turn means he has a happy Mum! Just crawling and walking milestones to hit now…I can't wait until he can walk as carrying him is getting more and more difficult due to his weight and the sheer amount of wriggling he can do - especially when I'm trying to carry him up the stairs - he came very close to being dropped at the weekend simply as he was doing a fantastic impression of an eel and sliding our of my arms!
The hair is still blond and curly - I still have frequent urges to get it cut just to get him looking a little tidier - plus he objects strongly to having it brushed and combing simply won't be tolerated! For a small person he knows his mind and doesn't want to discuss anything he objects to - stubborn is a small understatement!
Andy was lucky and managed to get Monday and today (plus Friday) off work. I could only get Friday but my new boss phoned me yesterday and told me to go home at 4.00 so I could spend some time with my little monster. Andy came and picked me up and as I walked in I got the most amazing smile from my son. It's moments like that which really help me to feel like I'm not a bad/failing mother and just maybe he does like/love me! All I need to do now is master the fasted nappy change in the world as his latest trick is to roll over as much as possible - usually when the nappy is best described as dirty! For a small one he is amazingly capable of creating a massive mess!!
Still in a grump - I need to throw this mood off before I get home as Andy can do grumpy for both of us without me adding to it…maybe I'm just missing my Parents as they are off exploring the Baltic at the moment, doing the cruise we were supposed to do back in 2008 but I wasn't well enough or in a state to cope with it. So jealousy could be sneaking in too.
Oh yes - Mikey got a rocking horse yesterday too and we need a name - Daddy wants to call it Bonnie (as in Tyler as it's a little hoarse - sooooooooo bad) so I need a different name asap - all suggestions gratefully received!
I'm also of the opinion that the Midlands are possibly one of the most laid back areas in the UK - they certainly aren't the most helpful as I've found and never seem to want to rush - why use 1 word when you could drawl out 10 or so… I can say with a fair degree of certainty that I didn't get any helpful answers and was pretty much told to call back next week when someone might be able to assist a little (If I'm lucky!!) It was a total waste of my time and hasn't exactly encouraged me to crack on with the list of things I have to do right now!
Most of this weekend was spent celebrating a small man's very 1st birthday! He is now able to open parcels (with a little help provided nobody has gone mad with the sellotape!) but really isn't bothered by cards or presents that resemble clothing! He spent most of Sunday afternoon with a Duplo brick in his mouth or eating chocolate cake (so his mothers cooking can't be too horrific!) He's also had his 12 month review and flirted with the advisor trying to do it! Well she was blond and they have always been his preference! I'm still trying to work out what has happened to the last 12 months… was I stuck in another coma for part of it as I can't remember it being a year since I had him! But looking at the size of him now I'm relieved I didn't have him recently! But he's been weighed and measured and everyone is perfectly happy with how he is getting on! Which in turn means he has a happy Mum! Just crawling and walking milestones to hit now…I can't wait until he can walk as carrying him is getting more and more difficult due to his weight and the sheer amount of wriggling he can do - especially when I'm trying to carry him up the stairs - he came very close to being dropped at the weekend simply as he was doing a fantastic impression of an eel and sliding our of my arms!
The hair is still blond and curly - I still have frequent urges to get it cut just to get him looking a little tidier - plus he objects strongly to having it brushed and combing simply won't be tolerated! For a small person he knows his mind and doesn't want to discuss anything he objects to - stubborn is a small understatement!
Andy was lucky and managed to get Monday and today (plus Friday) off work. I could only get Friday but my new boss phoned me yesterday and told me to go home at 4.00 so I could spend some time with my little monster. Andy came and picked me up and as I walked in I got the most amazing smile from my son. It's moments like that which really help me to feel like I'm not a bad/failing mother and just maybe he does like/love me! All I need to do now is master the fasted nappy change in the world as his latest trick is to roll over as much as possible - usually when the nappy is best described as dirty! For a small one he is amazingly capable of creating a massive mess!!
Still in a grump - I need to throw this mood off before I get home as Andy can do grumpy for both of us without me adding to it…maybe I'm just missing my Parents as they are off exploring the Baltic at the moment, doing the cruise we were supposed to do back in 2008 but I wasn't well enough or in a state to cope with it. So jealousy could be sneaking in too.
Oh yes - Mikey got a rocking horse yesterday too and we need a name - Daddy wants to call it Bonnie (as in Tyler as it's a little hoarse - sooooooooo bad) so I need a different name asap - all suggestions gratefully received!
Tuesday 7 June 2011
Insanity looms....
It is currently only 09.05 am and I am already close to slapping someone! If I hear the phrase 'lightweight dynamic probe' again I will not be responsible for my actions! I have no idea what one of these is or does and to be honest I know where I'd like it to be probing!! He wasn't in yesterday and the atmosphere was so much more relaxed it was wonderful!
I guess today hasn't had a good start….when my alarm went off I was still feeling so tired I was sure it had to be Saturday morning so rather than snoozing it I turned it off! I then had to rely on Andy getting up to even consider doing the same for me! I did manage to stagger to the bathroom but I've just remembered that my poor teeth didn’t get brushed (mind you I've totally forgotten to take all my morning pills again as well!) Luckily getting Mikey up wasn't too horrific this morning but getting downstairs involved a new(ish) game 'lets see if we can get Mummy to go blue in the face by tightening the chain round her neck' Not one of my favourite pastimes especially when Daddy is sat on the sofa eating breakfast saying 'don't make me come up there' as I choke…
The porridge part of breakfast for Mikey went well, then we got to the milk bit. I think we are starting to get fed up with Milk at breakfast time, it's always a battle and this morning I think we drank a couple of ounces - including the stuff thrown over Mikey and the floor! Now I need to rethink breakfast liquid as I know the cereal bit won't give him enough… I think he's a little young for the full English my nephew demanded from his Mum this morning! It is his birthday though…
It's now mid afternoon and today has had a few successes but rather more failures - but nothing that isn't insurmountable! The only major down is my back is really painful again and I have a feeling I'll need more antibiotics…I really don't have time to see a Dr at the moment and I guess I'm just a little scared they are stones again - but at least this time I'll only need to control any infection (I don’t want to be put in a coma again however much weight I'd lose!!) and then they can zap them again and I'll be out in a day if my blood pressure etc behaves! But recently is has been fine every time they have tested it (although I suppose I have to remember to take the tablets!!) Or I'll just live on painkillers…I suppose that is another option!
My nemesis is still winding me up without even realising how bloody annoying he is! I can only assume there is something about his voice that sets my teeth on edge and makes me want to slap him with a very large and extremely heavy sledge hammer. Maybe I need to destroy something in his place…I feel a trip to the shredder coming on!
I guess today hasn't had a good start….when my alarm went off I was still feeling so tired I was sure it had to be Saturday morning so rather than snoozing it I turned it off! I then had to rely on Andy getting up to even consider doing the same for me! I did manage to stagger to the bathroom but I've just remembered that my poor teeth didn’t get brushed (mind you I've totally forgotten to take all my morning pills again as well!) Luckily getting Mikey up wasn't too horrific this morning but getting downstairs involved a new(ish) game 'lets see if we can get Mummy to go blue in the face by tightening the chain round her neck' Not one of my favourite pastimes especially when Daddy is sat on the sofa eating breakfast saying 'don't make me come up there' as I choke…
The porridge part of breakfast for Mikey went well, then we got to the milk bit. I think we are starting to get fed up with Milk at breakfast time, it's always a battle and this morning I think we drank a couple of ounces - including the stuff thrown over Mikey and the floor! Now I need to rethink breakfast liquid as I know the cereal bit won't give him enough… I think he's a little young for the full English my nephew demanded from his Mum this morning! It is his birthday though…
It's now mid afternoon and today has had a few successes but rather more failures - but nothing that isn't insurmountable! The only major down is my back is really painful again and I have a feeling I'll need more antibiotics…I really don't have time to see a Dr at the moment and I guess I'm just a little scared they are stones again - but at least this time I'll only need to control any infection (I don’t want to be put in a coma again however much weight I'd lose!!) and then they can zap them again and I'll be out in a day if my blood pressure etc behaves! But recently is has been fine every time they have tested it (although I suppose I have to remember to take the tablets!!) Or I'll just live on painkillers…I suppose that is another option!
My nemesis is still winding me up without even realising how bloody annoying he is! I can only assume there is something about his voice that sets my teeth on edge and makes me want to slap him with a very large and extremely heavy sledge hammer. Maybe I need to destroy something in his place…I feel a trip to the shredder coming on!
Saturday 4 June 2011
Changing times
He's also happily eating the next stage of baby food so long as some really pureed stuff is added to it...as he shows in the mornings he prefers his porridge more runny than lumpy! I think he may also have 4 teeth at the top but he really isn't happy to let anyone look without sinking them into the viewers fingers, hands or anything else he can get hold of!
Life at work this week has been challenging! The new system is in at least - but I don't appear to exist on it as a collection specialist yet (I quite like that job title!) but slowly some of my old knowledge is fighting it's way to the surface! At least I don't feel that it is completely new to me and it has a small feeling of familiarity to it! Once I have my own ledger to start work on I'll be happier - right now I'm working on someone elses so at least that is being updated! But I did forget to move for most of Friday afternoon - which meant when I did it was most graceful (not) I also got to visit Basingstoke on Tuesday - but I didn't get to see the post office (family joke to do with catalysts)
One thing I have noticed recently is how tired I am...I had out it down to the infection/medication but I've finished all that now and I could still easily sleep for England for hours and hours! Andy and Mikey are both happy to nap during the day but I can't do that and just get ratty when they fall asleep during the day at the weekend and I'm awake and lonely... I so need my cat!! Some female company would be lovely.
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