Tuesday 18 March 2014

Strange emotions

This is going to be a rather selfish post. I am currently working through some, for me, stramge emotions. Here comes the selfish bit that I am feeling extremely guilty about.

A very good friend who I have known for far longer than either of us really wamt to admit to is currently battling breast camcer. The first guilt happened when she told me. By the time I got home that day I was falling apart. She has been positive throughout everything and has been amazingly positive and up beat. I can honestly say I am in complete awe of her bravery and attitude

Today was a landmark...but not for a nice reason. Yesterday she popped along to my desk to ask my opinion...her hair had started to come out and should she have it cut off? The only answer I could come up with was it might not be as noticable if it was short...this morning she arrived wearing a headscarf...the decision had been taken away as ot had all fallen out as she washed it.

At lunchtome she usually heads into the staff room woth a book. Today, understandably she stayed at her desk. One of our colleagues seemed to think she was there to deal with her stupid and inane questions amd just kept calling her. I just got more and more angry and ended up having a chat woth our supervisor...I now have permission to stop this if it happens again. I feel that there is mothing I can realistically do to helpnher fight...but I can ensure she gets peace and quiet so she can relax and rest for a short while...