Emotions...

I'm feeling pretty rough right now...but it's only a cold! I have to be in work tomorrow as we have a new starter so I'm on training duty again! I have done this once before...but she only lasted 2 days. Which if I'm honest was the right result!

But back to my main heading...I've just cried at the Winter Olympic closing ceremony as our flag was carried by our gold medal winning Skeleton rider/driver ( or whatever you do on them going headfirst down a bob sleigh run) who just happens to have gone to my old school. It was a similar feeling to the one I had lots in 2012... Plus my cold really isn't helping!!!

The closing ceremony is now turning slightly surreal and I really don't think my head can take this! The upside down street and people suspended from clouda are far too much for this poor old addled brain to cope with!

This week is hopefully hoing to be my last week as a temp. I have been verbally offered a permanent contract starting from the 1st of March. I like where I'm working. Most of the people are great.  I just wish it was closer to Ashford, the 60 mile round trip does tire me out and ofren I have no recollection of how I get to work or home....not good.

Mikey is continuing to grpw up to fast...but recently he and Misty seem to be jockeying for position and if he keeps grabbing her tail there is going to be some blood shed...and it won't be feline. I have explained to him that it is cruel to pull her tail but he doesn't appear to believe me.

I'm back...

It's been a long time since I blogged! But since I did I've started an OU degree. ..so only another 5 years to go I hope. Mum has been very ill (and yes, I am using my CPAP machine Mum!)

On an even more scary note we've applied for Mikey's Primary School place (where did my baby go) and before Christmas my little sister exploded into her 40's and even I managed not to tell her about the surprise party planned...But Mikey didn't manage to get a 'ta - da' in. But I'm sure he'll make up for it!

I'm still working in Kings Hill and enjoying it (very grateful for no Snow) and they seem to like me to! So all in all a win win situation!

Life in Heather Wprld is pretty good right now!

Time for a change...

I have made a decision...last week I had the kind of review at work that I think I have only dreamed of having in the past. Instead of having positive things said to balance out the negative EVERY SINGLE PART WAS POSITIVE. I came put slightly shell shocked by what I had experienced but also determined to show it wasn't a flash in the pan but that is simply who I am and what I'm good at. I can't pretend to be someone I'm not as I'd forget who I was pretending to be! With me you get exactly what it says on the tin!!

I think I've thrown in enough cliches for now!

Yesterday we were off to Moss to collect Mikeys suit for next weeks wedding. I know I'm totally biased but I nearly cried when I saw him...he just looks so cute and utterly adorable. He may have to start fighting off the girls now and heaven only knows what it could be like when he gets older... I really may need a tank to disperse the hoards of girls camping outside our house!

Last night I was flicking through Facebook when I saw an entry from the RSPCA Garden Cattery for a young cat called Bea. I sent a message and arramged to go in this morning with my personal Monster to meet her. So once Andy dragged himself out of bed we headed in only to find she had been put on reserve. But her daughter was still looking for a home so we met Whitney imstead.
I have to admit she enchanted me from the first touch!! My fingers were gently licked and slightly chewed whilst she managed to ignore the amount of noise coming from our small hurricane! ! She is a sleek young lady with glossy black fur and if we are given the go ahead, will hopefully be moving in with us for her however home... I'm trying not to get too excited but it's hard as I want her to have a wonderful life to make up for being stuck in a cattery for the first 5 months of her life.

So one major change that I hope will be happening soon will be the expamsion of our family by I feline member!! We've beet catless since 2010 and I think that is too long...plus a pet will also be good for Mikey and I'm confident that if he gets too much she will simply leave him alone and go and do her own thing!!

I just find it hard to believe that she has been  overlooked simply because she is black...she was so sweet and gentle this morning.

Sea sickness time...

I started writing this last night when I was in my dark place...since then I have had what can only be described as one hell of a manic day and it seems to have helped brighten or lighten the cloud enveloping me...

I've even been reading how 1 in 50 deaths in Belgium are now caused by euthanasia without trying to work out how to get there! For me this is a huge leap forward. I never usually escape from my dark place so quickly...a good positive feeling for me.

Lookibg back now I know it was triggered by something last week. My overwheming thought when I collected my prescription was what would happen if I took all the migraine and anti clotting tablets in one go? That would be 4 weeks of fairly dangerous drugs in one hit. I didn't know if they would just knock me out and let me slide away quietly. Basically I'm a coward and don't want any pain...so as I couldn't find any answers to the questions I didn't ask Andy to take control of them. But it obviously wasn't a serious mindset as my next thought was I need a lockable medicine cupboard now Mikey is getting older.

I've learnt today when my Uncle's funeral is...on the 18th in Rotherham. I'm really hoping I can get there so I can at least say good bye...for years I was convinced he flew a helicopter,  I can't remember why - I must remember to ask  my parents as it's annoying me that I can't remember!!

My overwhelming wish is that Mikey could have known both of my Uncles...my Mum"s brother died over 20 years ago and although Mikey did at least meet the other one he is never going to remember him. I know they would have both loved him as much as I loved them.

We hit another Mikey milestone today. ..his first 'school' photo. He looks like a cheeky imp and totally aborable (no bias here!!!) I wish I could have bought packs for all 3 photos but that would have given my bank manager a coronary... so I've been good and stick to one :-(

R.I.P

The news from Yorkshire yesterday was not what we had hoped for...My Dad's family is now pretty much just him and Nicky and my cousins. Our Uncle sadly died last night.

He was one of the kindest and quietest men I have ever known. He accepted you as you and never tried to change you in anyway. It was also easu to just relax in his company. Something I relished when I was frequently travelling between Kent and Halifax or Oldham. On one such trip back to kent from Oldham I stopped to see him and my Aunt, as usual they wamted to feed me! I'd had several weeks of wonderful Italian food so je went off and came back with Nuggets and fries as I was craving junk food!!

Another wonderful memory is his wonderful sense of humour and his reaction to a mug with a frog lurking at the bottom.  I vaguely remember a comb being used to try to discover what was so different about this mug and an awful lot of laughter.

I just wish Mikey was old enough to remember meeting him..

This week...

Has not been brilliant. There was some news from Yorkshire that I am not going to dicuss on here but I'm sending big positive hugs to my family.

Mikey is still loving playschool. And thanks to Debbie we now know that 'Oggy" is not some strange playschool activity but is actually Maggie, his key worker! I have no idea why he has shortened it... But as he is happy I'm not going to question it!

On Tuesday I finally called my Dr as I've been having painful twinges in my back on the left side. On Tuesday it was more painful than giving birth so I called my GP. As expected there were no appointments so I agreed to have the Duty Dr call me. 4 hours later I got a call which quickly turned into a total farce. By the end of it he thought I had a migraine and he is sending me for an ultra sound scan and has prescribed some serious painkillers.

What has amazed me is that he hasn't even done a dip test to check for any infection. He didn't even check my records...when I said where the pain is located and sounded surprised that I'd had problems before...I really hope I am wrong but I've also lost my appetite and feel sick most of the time. But on a positive note I might lose some weight. ..so some good may come from this!!!

The photo is of Mikey earlier this week...I wish I could sleep like that, without a care in the world! Oh to be 3 again and to have nothing to worry about.

Growing up

Yesterday was another step in the growing up process for my little boy. Next month he is being a page boy so yesterday was a trip to Moss Bros. for thr first fitting of his suit. I know I'm biased but he looked gorgeous and far to grown up. He didn't help much when his collar size was being checked and once I put it on him there was a lot of pulling at it as if it was too tight  buf they must be used to this as the top button is sewn on with elastic so it gives!!!

Once he was back to being a boy (his words) we wandered across to Clarks to look for some black shoes without flashing lights! Unfortunately the only pair I liked had flashing yellow lights and I know someone would bounce down the aisle to make sure they flash! But I have got another couple of weeks to find some!!

He is loving playschool, although I have yet to learn what 'Oggy' is. This is his usual answer if you ask what he has done there. ..he did tell our neighbour that he does painting - but we have yet to see any of it! But when it starts to come home I'll have to find space for a gallery!!

One problem we have had recently is him thumping people, including Nanny, Auntie Nicky and me. We felt it was due to an overdose of Tom and Jerry so watching of their escapades is currently under a temporary ban.  So now we need to  work out how to explain that cartoon characters don't feel or get bothered by pain, but people do....

But this is one of the first problems we've really had so in my mind we've still been very lucky with our little boy.