Catching up..

I've been meaning to update this for ages, but kept finding other things to do instead... but today I've got a mind that feels as though it is overflowing so it may well be the right time to empty some of it out here!

I've been back to choir for the second week and I'm sure I can feel my voice getting stronger, I can certainly hold notes a little longer without anything wobbling to much! It also helps my mood that we're really concentrating on Christmas stuff right now... nothing better than a good old Christmas song to lift your mood and leave you with a big, daft grin on your face. Well it works for me!

I saw the work Occupational Health Dr today and he kindly translated my discharge notes for me into english I can understand! Some of my spinal fluid is being tested by chromatography to look for MS, this will offer a definitive diagnosis rather than all the perhaps and maybes I've had so far. Apparently this is done up in London and can take 3-4 weeks to come back. Also they are testing me for a wierd kidney tumor which could be the reason my adrenaline levels are far too high. I'm not worried about this as it is totally benign (or however that is spelt) and can be removed with no real problems. There is only one hospital in the UK who do the procedure - The John Radcliffe which I think is somewhere near Oxford... but knowing my sense of direction I'm probably wrong!

The cat wars are still ongoing!! Squirell cat is totally adorable and I've managed to get a few stokes in now, he seems rather more sociable than Gizmo... but watching the pair of them fight through the cat flap is hilarious, I just get the impression neither of them appreciates me laughing at them  but it just looks so daft!!

Not much going on!

I'm still battling these stupid headaches but scarily I think I'm starting to get more used to them, they really don't feel quite as bad as they used to. That isn't really the way I want them cured, but it is better than the pain I have been experiencing.

Last night was my first trip to the Ashford Community Choir. It's safe to say it's very different to the last choir I sang with.. one thing we don't get much of is music and/or words - expecting me to remember words is a joke!!! I'm already googling frantically to find lyrics to help me!

I'm off to Portsmouth tomorrow - it's wonderful down there and I relax far more than I do in Kent. I can't explain why but I just do. I would love to live down there...perhaps a new start is what I need - leave all the memories behind me and start making some new ones for me and my family. I think we've all been through far to much already and the last week I had in hospital terrified me as I had no control or idea what was happening or wrong with me again. I feel a little as if I've gone back a year again and I have to get through everything that has happened since last september again.

Please can I borrow a drill...

My headache is fighting back big time now. I have been trying to avoid taking too many painkillers but a couple of hours ago I gave in and took some - but all I want to do right now is drill holes in my head again. The pressure has built up immensely and I just want to relieve it.

There has been a minor disaster today...Andy went to cook some sausages to make a sandwich at lunchtime but the oven refused to turn on. He has e-mailed the bloke who repaired it last time but I doubt we'll hear from him until Monday at the earliest. Which means I'm not cooking roast chicken for lunch tomorrow, I believe the plan is to make a quick trip to Chimneys for their Carvery...at least they do the washing up and preparation!!

We've recently had the battle of the cats here... Gizmo is renowned for letting other cats help themselves to his food, But Thursday night he let Squirrel cat ( a lovely grey fluffy animal) come into the kitchen whilst he sat outside. I just heard a cat come through the flap, Andy noticed it wasn't a short haired Gizmo but a much fluffier version! I think he/she just wanted somewhere nice to have a nap after finishing the food Giz didn't want! At least it didn't get wasted - I just get annoyed at him demanding food every 2 hours, even when he has some as he prefers it fresh out of the packet!!

Adjusting to life outside....

Well I've now been out for 2 days and I've finished the test they sent home with me... so today I started trying to relax a little more and finally try to relieve the stuoid headaches.

I had a trip to the hairdressers yesterday, I was supposed to go last saturday but for obvious reasons it had to be cancelled. Yesterday I got value for money... the hair has shrunk considerably and the 15 minute head massage was pure heaven, I'm trying to find reasons to go back for another hair wash!!!!

Today was a shopping trip with my gorgeous god daughter, and I got the chance to spoil her a little...which I think may be a legal requirement for God Mothers!! She also still gives great cuddles, provided she doesn't manage to get our finger into her mouth! Those teeth hurt and she can excert quite a bit of pressure!!!!

While I'm typing this Andy is watching the final of Big Brother...at least it's finally over and apparently there will only be one more series - I can't believe anyone is actually still watching this... I simply have an overwhelming desire to slap them all and preferably blow up the stupid house.

I've escaped!!!

They finally let me out today...having kept me sat there for the last day or so with very little news or any action at all. They did have their final dig though...yet another blood test, this time from the base of my thumb which is now turning a wonderful shade of black. I hate trainee Drs, why couldn't someone who knew what they were doing do it???

There is still no answer to what is causing my headaches so far, but there are no more tests they can think of to put me through... there is no way I want another Lumbar Puncture, if I ever have children I am sticking to gas & air and there is no way I'll have an epidural, it still hurts even now and the bruise is apparently quite impressive according to my mother!

I can honestly say hospital food has not improved from last year. Some of the stuff I was given was cemented to the plate and totally tasteless. Today was Boiled Beef & carrots...could someone tell me how on earth they managed to dry out boiled beef although adding gravy did disguise it a little, but not enough to make me eat it!!!