20 weeks

Technically I'm now halfway through this pregnancy...I really should have paid more attention in Biology! It doesn't last for 9 months really, but 40 weeks!

We've had a fairly quiet day today as Andy was working all day yesterday, I was given a gorgeous pair of earrings and a new necklace today...very spoilt and after dispatching Andy off to get something for lunch we ended up with jacket potatoes, pepper coated steaks & veg...rather tasty plus a Summer fruits trifle, which I could have easily eaten again it was so nice!! We then watched Patch Adams, at least I did while Andy snored through most of it! I will have to watch it again as I missed the big emotional bit as my Mother phoned at that point! Right now I think he's asleep on the floor again! I guess I should wake him up to feed him at some point!

Anyone got any ideas what I coul feed him??? I need to eat soon as I have to test my blood sugar 2 hours later and to be honest I want to go to bed! Maybe I'll just make some scrambled eggs and stick them under his nose!! Or I'll stick the Brie he bought earlier in his mouth and leave him to it! But I woul love to make some ham & brie toasted sandwiches...but they are strictly not allowed until June July time when I've had Tadpole, then I can have them, and pate, prawns and a large glas of something alchoholic plus a Snickers or something else ocntaining peanuts!

Maybe I should wake him up or he may wake me up at silly o'clock when he decides to come to bed and wants to move me off his side...but if he isn't there at a sensible time I think it's there for whoever falls asleep on it first!

Spoke too soon....

I might have said it was a quiet week and nothing was happening on Tuesday - me and my big mouth! It kept snowing yesterday while I was at work, but didn't seem to settle at all - I thought I was going to have to drive in it which I hate but wasn't too bothered/worried...Until I got into the car - the roads in the port were more of less clear, but were getting very slushy and slippy. The A20 was not great and soon went down to only 1 useable lane - and my ABS kicked in fairly often and I found the car is good at switching its own hazard warning lights on...which scared me even more...

It wasn't helped by Polish and Czech lorries hurtling past at high speed sending snow/slush/ice flying which made the visability even worse. The A20 coastbound was at a total standstill as there were a couple of accidents and a fuel spill - no fun at all for them but if I'm honest I would prefer to have not been moving rather than trying to drive on an icerink - there certainly hadn't been any grit on that road yesterday... Although I'm not sure it would have helped in those conditions. There may have only been a coupe of inches of snow, but I have never been as scared as I was trying to drive home, Dover to the Roundhill tunnell took over 40 minutes, thankfully the M20 was a little better, so long as you stuck to lanes 1 &2...and it got worse once I got back to Ashford.

THe forecast last night redicted more snow and they were spot on, I was supposed to be going to Canterbury from work this morning - and having heard the road reports on the radio at 6 (having been up several times during the night to check on the weather, I sent a text to my manager to take the day as holiday, much to Andy's relief as I dont think he wanted me driving around this morning...I was up by 6.30 taking photos though....

I did have to go out this morning though - I've finally managed to get me blood pressure medication, it appears all manufacturers of Methyldopa are having trouble sourcing the raw materials and so none is being produced/sent out and it is becoming a little like rocking horse droppings in it's rareity. But I now have just under 3 weeks supply and have put another prescription request into the Drs which should hopefully give the chemists time to try and track more down for me! But I am seeing my consultant again before I run out so I'll check if ther is anything else I can take in it's place until I have the baby... I don't want to risk any blood pressure problems affecting him/her.

I did find a new set of hero people this morning. I was being lazy and cleared the windscreen of snow using the wipers as  I was sat in the warm in the car and didn't feel like scraping snow off...Andy came out to clear the windscreen properly and when lifting the wipers off the screen they didn't got back properly and the passenger side wasn't even touching the screen. So the trip to the pharmacy was via Wilmoths who looked at the car straight away - Nigel did warn me I may have to pay for the repair as it wasn't really covered by the warrrenty (apparently it doesn't cover blonde moments) but it turned out I'd simply bent one of the arms so it was all fixed free of charge for me! I know many people give main dealerships a bad press, but I trust Wilmoths and they look after me and my cars really well. All I need to do now is convince then to let me swap my C2 for a C3 for no additional charge- it would mlife with the baby so much easier!!!

Nothing much happening...

It has been a very quiet start to the week - for which I'm decidedly grateful! I'm still waiting for my 2nd trimester energy to kick in and I'm still feeling pretty much like dead woman walking! I could do with about 6 hours more sleep each night although I don't have an extra 6 hours to sleep in...although I could try going to bed as aoon as I get home, that would give me another 4-5 hours to sleep in and I can talk to Andy at the weekend I guess!!!

Poor Gizmog nearly starved today...Andy bought a special cat feeder with lids that pop up so he gets fed twice a day, but ths morning he forgot to switch it on so Gizmog got nothing at all. Even I have been nice to him since I got home and to be honest he has been amazingly quiet and not loud like he usually is!

Driving home was not much fun today...there was nearly a serious road rage incident just before I got home... There were a few cars waiting to turn out of Hilton Road, a mini driver stopped and proceeded to let everyone out and the car driver behind her and infront of me objected. I have to admit I haven't a clue what some of his gestures meant - but I felt intimidated by him :(

They are also expecting cold weather tonight - a gritting lorry was coming out of the end of our road as I waited at the traffic lights to turn right - I just wish they gritted right round rather than just up Loudon Way as the road between the 2 round abouts gets decidedly dodgy and I've skidded a couple of times whilst trying to drive along there. And I don't need the stress at the moment!

Tadpole is in a growth spurt apparently at the moment... but we don't get to see him/her again until 25th February...does anyone have a spare machine I could have at home so I could see him/her whenever I want to!?!?!? June is feeling like a very long time away right now and I'm feeling really impatient!

Week 19...

As of tomorrow I am 19 weeks pregnant. Still without bumpage but one of the forums I'm a member of another Mum to be pointed out that we tallerladies don't get bumps as quickly as smaller ones as we have a bit more space for the baby to move around and fill before they have to start growing outwards! So I guess being tall is a slight advantage for me! I'm still fitting in most of my clothes at the moment - a couple of pairs of trousers are a little uncomfortable, but i never used to wear them that often so I'm not really changing how I dress in the slightest!

Gizmog is driving Andy and I up the wall at the moment, he won't leave us alone and is getting increasingly vocal. He has been locked out twice so far today and just started boxing his cat flap against the locking plate thing - almost as annoying as his yelling. Please, does anyone want a cat before I work out how to launch him into space??

My appontment at the diabetes clinic on TUesday went really well! My last blood test gave me a result of 6.6 against a target of 6.5!!! I got a virtual pat on the head and a well done in my notes - which meant alot to me as I still have days when I feel Im not controling my blood sugar in the slightest, bit it appears I'm not doing to bad so far! I may still have to go onto proper insulin before my pregnancy finishes, but compared to my first appointment that isn't happening any day soon! And may still not happen at all! I got home on Friday to a letter from my GP asking to see me to discuss my recent blood test... I can only assume they haven't realised I'm being looked after a diabetes team and want to fiddle around and mess around with my current treatment...I'm very tempted not to bother as I'm quite happy with the care I'm getting from my team right now and I don't need one of the junior Drs at my GP's surgery trying to prove their worth. If the treatment I'm getting now is working why mess with it!

February...

Could someone please tell me what happened to January...I seem to have blinked and missed it completely! If 2010 continues to whiz past at this speed I'm probably going to be giving birth in a few days time rather than the 140 days it is supposed to be!

I'm allowing myself a treat right now - no added sugar milk chocolate! I can't say it is the best chocolate I've ever tasted but it doesn't have additional sugar added so it isn't as bad for me as, for example, Galaxy! And it is quite nice to sit here and eat chocolate without feeling totally guilt ridden!

I had an early night last night as I am only too aware how tired I am these days. Once Andy came up and I got my hug I soon got to sleep...but I then just kept waking myself up all through the night, when my alarm went off it came close to being flung across the bedroom, I honestly felt that I had only been asleep for about an hour and the feeling that I kust wanted to stay put was high on my list of things to do this morning - looking out of the window really didn't do much to change my mind as my little balck car was white and looked far more ike an iceberg than a little C2! Thankfully there wasn't much traffic around today...I pretty much slept all the way to Dover - maybe the car has finally learnt the route so I can have another 30 minutes of sleep rather than watching the lorries on the motorway!!

Need a bigger bed...

Poor Andy, he had last week in a room with a bed he couldn't get to sleep in - and he's come home to find I have claimed the whole bed as mine!!! I am still shattered the whole time, I think I should have a chat with my midwife and get my iron levels checked...It possibly isn't being helped by me feeling really down at the moment. I know I should be happy as this is what I've wanted for so many years but over the last couple of weeks I've found it harder and harder to be happy and smiley and extremely difficult ( for that read impossible) to keep my emotions under control. As I demonstrated at the station on Friday when I saw Andy walking up from the platform.

Gizmog has more or less forgiven Andy for going away now I think...but he has not got any quieter... Andy was having a snooze this afternoon but kept being woken up by me yelling at the cat and Gizmog yelling at me - I think I got fed up with the arguement before the cat did for once!

I'm still battlng with my sugar levels at the moment - I was testing this morning after breakfast and started off over 9 with blood from one finger and by the time I moved onto the 3rd finger (well, thumb!) I was down to 6.3 - I honestly have no idea what caused such a difference but I was decidedly fed up and about the throw the monitor down the garden. I'm officially 18 weeks today so just under halfway there...I am extremely fed up with watching everything I eat so closely, If I actually start feeling hungry it's such a pain finding something I want and can eat that most of the time I give up and don't bother...which is probably not helping my energy levels in the slightest.

Day 5

He's home!!!! I was trying so hard to be fine when I picked him up from the station but I saw him walking up to the barrier and that was it, I started crying and just wanted to hug him. It really didn't help that he then got into a small queue to get through the exit barrier and it took far to long for me to get hold of him. I've ben trying to blame my hormones for my over emotional state but if I'm honest since I was ill in 2008 I've just become a much more emotional person whatever my hormones may or may not be doing!

At the moment Andy is dropping his Mums pills off then I have to feed him - I think it will be one of my concoctions before he settles down to watch the final ever Celebrity Big Brother. I have no problem with this so long as I get to see EastEnders - I appear to have stopped craving anything food based, just 1 soap and Casualty for an unknown reason! Neither can really be describesd as cheerful in anyway but I am hooked! Can I blame hormones for this as well!?!?!?

I've made my dessert for tomorrow and was amazed that double cream has a green rating for sugar! Natural Yogurt is amber...and the raspberries are also green so sugar/diabetes wise it all looks good until I think about the sugar I covered the top in! But if I'm feeling good I could not eat that bit or give it to Andy!! We'll forget about his diet until Monday maybe!!!

Gizmog is still sulking somewhere and I haven't seen him since we got home...not sure if he's trying to make Andy suffer or if he's hiding cos it snowed again. I wasn't impressed that I had to drive through what was basically a blizzard... I need spring and soon